I just want to live without u.
Respectable, are you talking with me? I can't see anyone else here. Who are you? I think you're just a creation of my fantasy. What? Really? Wow, I was right. There is something inside me, you know. ..I can't explain it as exactly as I wanted to, but I feel something roughly like some kind of happy and warm. I can feel the smell of sigarettes, mixed with his Aqua di Gio. I hear the wind, bringing his tired voice. I know, I can't do anything else. I can't touch his hand and stop his thinking about himself. I dont know how to say that in other words, but I feel his pain as strong as it was mine....What is it? No. It can't be love. This word is to complicated for me. But I need him. Every hour per a day. Every second, I need him like breathing, he is my own source of life.. My lovely madness, are you still here? Are you listeting to my damn speech? I am done...Already done. I lost something important in these deep dark waters. I'm going to deep into somethin' cold, light-blue. This place scares me a little. Dreams don't want to come here. I see only strange bright- shining blue light.. Should I find the way to die? I will fight, one more fight, are you listening to me? I will try, one less time, don't break down in front of me. I can't let you to die. I want to see your subsequent reaction on this hell. I can contribute remarks into your life. Why are you so closed from me| Oh, I forgot, I'm sorry. Just for a second....I thought you was really honest. I will try again. Without your help. I'll manage with it. Don't look at me as awfully, as I was mad... But what if you're right?
It is an interesting game I think. I'll prove that i can still life....
Good bye, my own gun...